Making the Most Out of Losing Touch

As long as it is not with yourself, we’re good.

Everyone experiences a falling-out within relationships at some point in time. With friends, boyfriends, girlfriends — even family. Though some relationships are worth salvaging through turbulence, where do we draw the line when these occurrences are too often: to when we start to lose touch within ourselves?

Too frequently, we can overanalyze ourselves whilst in the crossfire of negativity being thrown at us from other people. It is so often, unfortunately, that it changes the entire perspective of an argument and unexpectedly forces us to go through stages of reassessment of other people; and also thrusts us into an epiphany of newfound self-discovery. Though mental and emotional turmoil can feel seemingly unfair and unprecedented when concocted through a once strong relationship, it’s time to embrace the unexpected and start expecting more of others.

Understand early-on if this person is for you or against you. 

But how? Most times when we skin our knees whilst jumping the hurdles staged in paths of relationships, we think about the pain and fall — not the recovery. In time, issues that result in ‘losing touch’ with someone can help us reflect on attitude and behavior from others that the relationship may have led us to be blinded by before. Unfortunately, we don’t care about all this “revelation” crap until it happens. If only we knew when someone was going to let us down, right?

The question still lingers: what makes a person toxic? And more importantly, at what point do we stop blaming ourselves for other people’s shitty behavior and start shedding off the dead, toxic weight that they helped us gain? The scale never lies.*

*(In this sense, at least. Ask me after the months of October-January 1st and I may have to dispute it).

Behavior. 

This is a big one. Do you have that one friend person out of the group that always needs to point out the negativities? The kind of person that strips the surface joy just to dig a little deeper for a good jab? Possibly does it to get a laugh out of others at your expense? Yeah. I know the kind. This was my first experience with immature behavior from ‘friends’. 

Language.

This same person is probably pretending to be your biggest fan. Empty compliments, vague occasional comments on social media pictures and the all-too-familiar “ew, stop!” that they shout when you dare to show the slightest ounce of personality around…certain people. Accompanied by an eye-roll. Which leads me to my final observation of:

Insecurity.

“Arrogance is a hollow confidence”

Michael J. FormicaEgo, Insecurity, and the Destructive Narcissist

We all have egos; but we can choose what we invest in for reaction. This rational truth’s next-door neighbor is Envy; and it is always peering through the front window, waiting to greet you with tainted baked goods amidst us all being human and conversing with the ‘could-be’s’ and ‘what-if’s’. Still, we need to realize that emotional intelligence and sophistication is not carried by condescending and disparaging people.  

All-in-all, recognizing trivial behavior from the get-go of a new relationship (or amidst a revelation of a current one) can be helpful in rationalizing with a toxic person’s behavior; but not necessarily with them. Though one may have good intentions, where do we begin to differentiate an altruistic act versus an egocentric one? 

When we don’t set healthy boundaries, our self-esteem begins to ebb; but here is our hand: should we sacrifice our own well-being and emotional intelligence in the wake of someone’s arrogance? Or, should we teach ourselves to understand the behaviors and verbal vacancies that interactions with these baneful individuals portray? 

Sound like a lot? I may be examining this too closely, but everyone experiences a falling-out within relationships at some point in time. With friends, boyfriends, girlfriends — even family. Though some relationships are worth salvaging through turbulence, where do we draw the line when these occurrences are too often: to when we start to lose touch within ourselves?

Make the most out of losing touch; you may learn something about yourself through someone else’s insolence. 

What are some things you have learned when dealing with toxic individuals?

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*Cover-art photography provided by Travon Schake, @vibeswithkingt via Instagram.

Admitting I Don’t Know What’s Going On Here

I don’t know what I am supposed to be doing here. I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing anywhere, really.

Sometimes I’ll be on Instagram, mindlessly scrolling through and double-tapping the things I want, the people I want to be, the things captured that I envy. This makes me feel shallow – guilty that I am not thankful enough for the basic things I have that many do not: a roof, a job, decent money to live on and a phone to even have the account for the app that got me into this mental spiral of “why not me” and “why me”. This is all very exhausting, you see.

I know how to be grateful, I do! There’s just certain people you see or certain places those people document and share that have me asking myself often…did they post that on purpose? Did they intentionally gloat because they knew that I would see it and be having these reactions? I like to think Kylie Jenner has enough to keep her busy, but really, does she know that we’re here, eating all of this shit up? They have to know. It’s what keeps this embarrassing cycle alive, and me awake at night. Awful.


The great thing about admitting I don’t know what’s going on half the time is that I’ve learned that many others don’t either.

I’ve found that when you are the first to verbal it, many follow suit; I just have yet to decide wether this is a great leadership quality I have, or if its a poor, sadly mistaken effort I’ve blindly made in getting those around me to admit something jokingly in pity, for this is all abnormal and no – I should really get my shit together and stat.

Last year, a lot of things happened in my personal life including – but not limited to – loss, dehydration and a lot of exhausting sleep. Yes, I know, thats an oxymoron I should be grateful for proclaiming but many of you may understand what I’m getting at. A lot of my time recently has been wasted so unintentionally; I truly have let things and instances engulf my headspace so frequently that all I want to do is drop everything and sleep! Except, the busybody in me doesn’t want to go to sleep and quite frankly just wants to be as productive as possible and drink a lot of water while doing it, but, you see how this is tiring already.

Does anyone else feel this way? Finding yourself intertwined in this cycle of Work, Be Tired From Work, Wanting To Be Productive and Oh Man I Really Feel Like Shit Ending Up In Bed At 6:30 PM Again.

Maybe its just me. But, the beauty of estimating that possibility is: I admit it!

Is there anything that has you finding yourself asking, Does anyone else feel this way?

You can trust me, there is.

But just incase you need that reassurance of someone else stepping forward first, let me know in the comments. It’ll be like popcorn reading in class: you didn’t ask for this opportunity but you might as well use it as it may be the only platform you have, then lay your crap on the next person that once considered you a friend.

Cheers to us.

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